Just what I needed.

These last few weeks haven't been easy for me, in the motherhood department. Having kids is way harder than I expected. Then having the added gift of autism, always there, just hanging out with us, makes it so overwhelming sometimes. The schedule, the craziness, the samesamesame. It gets to you in ways you didn't think possible. So today as I was leaving school, after picking up Baduka, and was trying to figure out how to fill the hours til dinner, I was feeling kinda eh about it. Then I pulled into the driveway, realized Dizzy and the New Kid were sleeping, decided to use this time wisely, and drove towards the highway. I stopped at a friend's real quick to drop something off, then headed to Nana. She had some cups for Baduka that I wanted to grab.

I talked with my mom out on the porch for a few, while the boys were in the car, and then said goodbye.

As we were pulling away, all 3 said, "Nana's house! Bounce!" I stopped the car, and asked, "you wanna go jump on the trampoline?" All 3 said, "Yes!" So how could I say no?

What happened next was exactly what I needed. A half hour of giggling, tickling, rolling, and "bounca-bounca-bounca!" These boys are the highlight of my every day. They drive me crazy, make me cry, make themselves cry, and just cause mayhem and destruction, everywhere they go. But for 30 minutes today, we forgot all about that, and laughed and had fun together. Baduka kept asking me to, "STAND UP!" so he could knock me over, laughing the whole time. The New Kid would come running/wobbling/bouncing to ask, "mom! Youuu OH KAY?!" Then laugh as I bounced back up. Dizzy was happy to run in circles and be tackled by Baduka. He absolutely loves the attention Baduka sometimes gives him.

It really was such a great way to reset myself, I couldn't help but get teary eyed on the way home. These boys aren't going to be babies forever, but they will always be my bests.